Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Pillar of strength

Just when I had finally stood up, life threw me a punch in the face, reeling me backwards with a bloodied nose.

Why is it that everytime when things are starting to look up, something comes along to undo all the good. Life seems to have a knack for throwing misfortunes my way. Why can't things just be smooth-sailing?

Now as I sit here in desperation, wondering what to do. I can't help but wallow in self-pity and ask myself a million times, 'why me'? I've never asked for the world. All I've ever wanted was to mind my own business and stay trouble-free. Is that even too much to ask for?

I can't be everyone's pillar and I don't want to be. I don't want to always be strong and dependable for everyone. I'm not as strong as I look. All I want is to be a weak little woman who seeks shelter in someone else's shadow. My shoulders are simply not wide enough to take on the weight of the world. I can't bear it, it's just too heavy.

But just when I thought I've been swallowed whole by this infinite blackness, I noticed a tiny blip of light and I smiled to myself that all's not lost for I still have Meg ..............

1 comment:

  1. esther jie,u ok? we all hav moments like these but its important to remember,you have alot of ppl of care about you and we r all here till you pull thru tis,neva give up hope in believin okies =))

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