September holidays sleepover

Meg loves sleepovers & she had been planning one for the September holidays since I don't know when :p And at long last the big day (or rather night) finally arrived.

A little finger food to keep the kids occupied while waiting for the others to arrive
The 1st programme for the night is BENTO-MAKING!!! It was Meg's idea & it turned out to be a great one because all of them were really keen & enthusiastic about it. Meg & I went shopping in Meidi-Ya the day before and we bought lots of ingredients! I've even laid out my precious bento-making tools & lunch boxes for them to get creative. The amazing thing was that there was hardly any wastage. The girls were popping the leftovers into their mouth while making their bentos. Haha ..... they were so stuffed after that!
They were listening to me intently as I taught them the basics. And since Meg had seen me done it so many times, she was happy playing the role of the photographer. Wow ..... it was tough work, at the end of tutorial, sweat was trickling down my back & my hair plastered to my face.
Once they got started, there was no stopping them! And in the background, Meg was telling her classmates non-stop how good her mum was at bento. It had me grinning like a Cheshire cat :DDD Everything had been worth it!
I was totally amazed by their creativity, there's so much that I can learn from them! This bento belongs to Charlene. A pity she had to leave midway & it wasn't as finished as she would have liked it.Here's Jaanvi's ~~ I love those cheese clouds!
Ha Young is a lovely Korean girl & Meg's bestie.
Meg's besotted with Naruto --- Hahaha ....... hence NARUTO bento! Great job with the Konoha sign on the headband using nutella ;)
Rei Yi is ingenious turning the baking cup into an umbrella
Arianne's the most detailed of the lot. All of the bentos look so yummy, right? So for those of you out there still hesitating, you know you can do it cos these 8 year olds did it! I lent them the lunch boxes to bring home so that they can show it off to their families & printed the pics for them to still be able to feel proud when their bentos are gone.
While I take a break (exhausting!), they were amusing themselves singing & dancing to the Wondergirls ~~ I wanna nobody nobody but you! Hahaha ........
Then they moved on to board games & nearly brought the house down with their screams. Girls will be girls, I guess :)


They shared the room with me as there were too many & unable to accommodate into Meg's room.

They totally love having their pics taken & volunteered all kinds of poses for me. Wahahaha ...... this is so funny & spontaneous!!!And then they tried jumping ..............


This pic was totally random but Meg thought up of a story line which was hilarious. Again linked with Naruto of course ------ Konoha Senpuu??!! -__-""Last activity before they go to sleep. Happily snacking & watching the DVD I rented (Dogs vs Cats or something like that). And it was way past 3am when I heard the 1st little snore. Whoa ...... it worried me for a moment that they might never stop their chattering!
I made sure they wake up to a hearty breakfast before their parents came to pick them up. The girls told me they had a great time & Meg was really elated that her slumber party went so well!

Invisible tears

He doesn't want to see me cry.
So he pretends the tears are not there.
I guess it's easier that way.

Sad movie always makes me cry .........

There's a silent movie playing over & over again in my head. It's like a broken video that's been left on autoplay. It's always the same storyline but the scenario constantly changes. This is pure mental torture. Every scene opens up a fresh wound in my heart. I need to stop this now but where the hell is the stop button?!!

We heart shopping in Meidi-Ya

I decided on shopping in Meidi-Ya for Meg's upcoming slumber party's supplies. And amazingly both of us had a great time there just simply doing grocery shopping. There were so many yummy-looking food that we could hardly contain ourselves! We LOVE everything JAPANESE ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

A forgotten present

While cleaning Meg's room, I found the present that she bought for you some time back from the school bookshop. She had wanted it to be a Christmas present and even had it all wrapped up plus a ribbon. It was addressed to the nickname that she gave you, 'Mr. Mango Man'.

It was kept hidden in the deep recess of her shelf. I think she herself had forgotten about it. My initial reaction was to shout out to her to remind her but I immediately halted myself and pushed it back to where it was placed. I do not want to evoke in her the same sense of loss as I did.

Tainted love

When you look back at your memories and realised that it's tainted, what do you do?

Do you, try to erase it and recreate new ones?

Or do you, hold it close to your heart to remind you not to taint the future too?

Just let me cry

I have to remain strong for many, especially Meg. I wonder if it's a good thing not be given the chance to grieve over a loss. Does that make one happier or does that make one more miserable?

I kept my cheerful smile on for Meg & went about my routine normally. I don't know if she ever saw through my smiles but I guess it was assurance enough for her.

The thing is that although I try as hard as I can, it's impossible to be immune to it 100%. My defences are at its' lowest when I am alone. When I am driving, in the shower, or lying alone in bed ........ I can't help it but the tears just flows on its' own. It's as if the tear-holding bucket inside me had been filled to it's brim and it just simply overflowed. It's especially awful when I am driving because a sudden onslaught of tears would come on and completely blur my vision.

It isn't easy being strong too. Just before I go home, I will spend an hour sitting in the car, emptying that bucket so that it won't overflow when I am with Meg. Even then, I made sure I never cave in completely. I never allowed myself to reminisce about the past because it just hurts too much and will completely pull me into deep despair. I never had a good fulfilling cry because I was afraid that once I gave in crying, I might never stop ............

Slumber party!

Meg had been bugging me for a slumber party during the term holidays for the longest time. Finally we agreed on a timing & I worked at the invitations long & hard last night. I am so happy with the way the invite turned out. Even Meg & her friends were suitably impressed!

Learn my lesson - Daughtry

說好的幸福呢﹖ - Jay Chou

Bento #25 - Kirby sandwich

In the box: Kirby luncheon meat sandwich, baked beans, young sweet corn, cherry tomatoes

Hmmmm ........ still awake at this hour. Looking at the time now, it looks like I won't be getting any sleep for the night even if I wanted to. The irony is I really do want to sleep now. I'm close to passing out right here. Just too bad that I have to leave for work in an hour. The night's already passed and so guess I can't cry over spilled milk, life goes on whether I like it or not.

Anyway back to the bento. Kirby would have looked much better if I had ham instead of luncheon meat. So for those of you thinking of trying this, use ham. But if like me, you're caught unprepared, then just do the best you can with whatever you have on hand. So much like life, isn't it? You can only try to make do with whatever card, life deals out and then hope for the best.

Geez ........ I had suddenly gained profound wisdom overnight :p

Perfectly timed

I should be trying to get some sleep at this hour but finds it really hard to lie down with this hurt and anger raging inside me. I already have enough on my plate but you chose to push this down my throat at this time. What perfect timing it is to be rubbing salt into my wound when the cut is at it's deepest. Just when I'm facing a major family crisis, and I thought I could lean on you for support, you hit me with an even bigger issue.

What cruel timing ...........